Imported from Facebook notes by April 4, 2010 "One Can not Motivate Oneself"

My friend once asked me this,
"where do the psychologists go if they had a
problem on their own?"
At that time i thought a psychologist must have
those skills to solve every problem that what they
would do if they had a problem is, they just think
about it themselves.
Then my friend said "ah i hate it if people suggest me
to 'get the problem back to your self'"
I told everyone to keep fighting! Be optimistic and
spiritful, not to think about their failure, and just
get over it.
But what? Inside me, myself keeps self-pitying my
stupidity, my foolnes, lacks in mostly everything.
I dont have enough motivation to motivate ME.
Even i dont have ANYthing (in this case; skill,
amazingly high IQ, power, etc)
Dont know why. Frankly saying, I'm just a way too
shy and underconfident :(
When I come to talk about my problem to people
around me, i'd just turn back and say 'nevermind,
i'm fine'
I always think i'm such a sad excuse for a
HUMAN. I know i shouldn't, but..still there's this
feeling that keeps me being a drama queen and
cry for every tiny problem or fear i have to face :(
Maybe that's why there are motivator, therapist,
etc. Because no one can motivate themselves
Maybe i need someone, or
Maybe i dont :)
"have you ever seen your face, in the mirror
there's a smile.
But inside you're just a mess, you feel far from
good" - lene marlin, disguise
PS: sorry i tried to make it in indonesian but it
sounds too lebay and sinetronical. Well it still do
even after i wrote it in english (;
Sorry for making this awfully pathetic note.
Sorry for getting anyone who read this note into
such a tearful situation.
Sorry for my very very bad, bad english
But I didn't sound emo-ish, did I?
I wonder where mario teguh goes if he had a
problem.
SALAM SUPER!

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