Welcome and Goodbye

It's probably the third time I tried to fall in love aka get myself curious//infatuated with a male human. Surprise, surprise. 

It didn't work, as you guessed. I stopped myself right before he tried to reach me. But all is said and done, he will never know, he already lost interests anyway. 

I didn't even know his name. But didn't sending him more than one message simultaneously give a signal of attachment? Attachment is scary, you won't know how to get out of it. 

I'm afraid I will keep asking for his attention, then he will grew tired of me. Because he will. Just like everybody else. 

I didn't even know his name yet, and I will never find out how he actually feels about me. Or maybe that's better, for the answer might disappoint me anyway.